Looking Back On 2018
I can’t believe we’re at the end of 2018 already. It literally came and went in a snap.
2016/2017 were hard, life changing years for me. I was a brand new wife and mom and I didn’t feel like myself for that timeframe. I spent so much time trying to prove that I hadn’t “changed” that I was exhausting myself and feeling like a failure internally. It was the most exciting new chapter of my life that I was entering yet I felt small and lost. The problem was that I was giving to everyone but myself in that mission to seem like I adjusted to my new life perfectly which resulted in falling asleep at night with zero self-confidence.
My goal for 2018 was to figure out the right balance of giving myself everything I needed without ignoring giving to others - I call this being “unselfishly selfish” in my head. I challenged myself to have a to-do list just for me and say no to anyone or anything that would interrupt or distract me. I said “no” more, with the pure intention of only doing things that my heart was fully invested in. I openly disagreed with people at work, and didn’t care who - if I thought my idea was better, I argued my position and I took every bit of credit for my innovations. I started my blog - a social representation of the channel from my brain to my heart - because I was ready for people to really get to know me for who I am now. Most importantly, I learned about true self-awareness. I accepted loving criticisms, embraced my flaws, and actively worked to be better.
In 2018, I hit my stride.
I found myself feeling less tired and more fulfilled making me a better person for my husband and my son. I enjoyed my family and friends without guilt because all time spent was quality time and I was able to nurture real, important relationships. I saw my biggest gains in my career, thus far, and was able to obtain some pretty cool letters after my name. Through working on my own flaws, I was able to have an open heart to those of others. Even if it meant letting go of certain friendships in some capacities, I can whole-heartedly say that I harbor no ill feelings toward anyone that I have once cared about. I found contentment and peace. I laughed harder. I know myself again and I love me.
So for 2019…
…my goal is to keep going. My hope for myself and for all of you is one in the same - Growth, Happiness, Peace of Mind, and Love.
From my family to yours…Happy New Year!