Define being HUMBLE.
My husband had an interesting conversation at work this week and brought it home for my perspective. He asked what humility meant for me and this is what I ended up sharing with him.
I try not to let small scratches taint my view of the big picture. That's not always easy because when you feel how you feel in a certain moment, the smallest issues can feel like Mt. Everest is on your back. In my life, scratches can be an argument with husbae, my son running into a wall, missing a task deadline for a project, or deliveries for an event not coming in on time - with the potential for all of the above to happen on the same day. Whenever those moments present themselves, my way of getting through it is by rationalizing "in the grand scheme of [blank], this [blank] is not that important." "In the grand scheme of my marriage, this point that I'm trying to make is not that important. In the grand scheme of what some children have to deal with, this bump on Grey's forehead is not that important. In the grand scheme of the project outcomes, this one deadline is not that important. In the grand scheme of this event, this one hour is not that important." I realized that I look at myself the same way. In the grand scheme of life, I'm not that important. That's what humility means for me.
I can pinpoint my gifts and talents pretty well and you'll never really catch me talking down on myself. But I know that an entire universe exists and I'm a mere speck on the face of one planet. No one HAS to celebrate me for what I think makes me awesome. No one even has to agree with me thinking that I'm awesome lol. I don't deserve any daily pats on the back or gold stars for my existence. My job is to make sure I use the gifts and talents God gave me to represent Him well while being extremely grateful and knowing that I can lose every blessing at any moment.
I'm thankful for every comment, message, like, "go Danie" that I get from friends and family who want to encourage me because I know that no one has to. With all the sadness in the world and in thinking about all the torment that some people have to go through, I'm just not that important. I never will be.